Most people would say love
or money
or jewels
or a husband
but few would say clarity
I just want to know
where the lines are.
I feel like i'm driving
A car with a stiff steering wheel
on a road
at night
with a really bad fog
and no head lights.
I want to be able to see what's in front of me
so i can deal with it
and keep going
so that when i come to some obstacle
I can avoid it
slow down, go around
or speed up, blast through.
I want to know what you're thinking
when you look at me like that
I want to know before you say it
so i know what to do when you say it
so i dont hurt you
cuz i love you
but i dont love you enough to go there
dont you get it?
dont you see?
I'm just not like that
that's not me
those stupid words
with their connotations
the media has twisted them
your mind and mine dont mesh you see
you think one way,
I the other
It would never work
We'd break up and it'd hurt
you think it's worth it,
I just can't
My hearts too fragile for that
I'll probably go home and cry
wishing tbere was someway
maybe somewhere else
in a differant time
with a differant plan
we could have been.
But we weren't then
We're now
And now is when we'll live and die
and fight and cry
and laugh and love
but not with each other
Maybe i'll see you again someday
while walking my children and dog in the park.
Maybe our families will hit it off
and we can be friends again
Or maybe, After college,
we'll both come back home
you'll call me up and say
"Can we try? I'm for real now,
t's not just play"
I'll ask you if you mean it
and if you really do
You'll ask my dad and he'll say yes
and we'll go get a table for two
Maybe you'll propose,
Or God will tell us both no
and either way, we'll be ok
but you know something?
I dont think that will happen
and it has nothing to do with what i wanted to say
what i want to say
is why is it like this
why cant a girl just get a little clarity
just tell me what to do God and i'll do it
Just tell me what to say and where to go
teach me what i need to learn
Lead me to a man i can love
lift me so i am strong enough to be everything i need to be
lend me your heart so i can love that much more
put me where you want me
tell me what to do
let me loose to do it,
and watch your will unfold.
I dont need it all at once,
just the piece ahed of mine.
If I know what's coming up i'll be able to prepare better
Please God?
Just a hint?
2.27.2008
1.26.2008
i can't believe it's all over
Creative writing is over!
I think i'm gonna cry! :'(
but I get to TA for my french teacher next semester! YAY :D
I think i'm gonna cry! :'(
but I get to TA for my french teacher next semester! YAY :D
1.18.2008
Assignment MM5
Numero uno:
Strengths of the genre: It's enlightening sometimes. It's usually not a dense peice of text and there usually isn't like, "hidden meaning".
Weaknesses: sometimes people choose to talk about something really boring and dont manage to make it interesting. For example, Jury Duty.
I actually like writing fiction better because I'm not confined to what has actually happened to me. I usually make up stuff that while somewhat realistic had never actually happend to me, because lets face it, not that much happens to me. And often, something that might be special to someone else is kinda commonplace for me so I would write about it differantly or not at all.
Doce:
Reading gives us more ideas and feeds our vocabulary. There is not really much more to say besides that. I don’t like this question, why do we need to do so many words for a question so easily answered. I’ll try I guess.
Reading can inspire us, it can teach us, and it can move us to emotion. Reading something in a book can change your life just like going to hear someone speak. Sometimes more so because you can read it again and again. Reading is also very special because when you are super stressed out, a book can take you some where else- somewhere where life is better, or people are fighting to make it better- anywhere but real life.
tres
Favorite piece might be the first short story I wrote, about the roses. But I think I got the best stuff out of the poetry unit, Untitled, Untitled 2, The Dagger Blue, sighs, and Blank Paper Calls to Me. So poetry’s my favorite genre I guess, it kind of takes a lot less effort. Red Roses for her might be my favorite because it’s more serious than some of my other prose but it turned out really well and a lot of my friends liked it too. Greatest challenge was probably the play, I went through like three idea’s before finally settling on my final one. I didn’t really care for my play, it was kinda boring and cheesy and it wasn’t very well written because it was so early in the morning when I wrote it. I will use like everything for like APAL assignments this year, and next year I dunno how I’ll use it in school but I do plan to keep writing stuff. especially poetry, I like writing poetry. :)
Quatre: Quiz
Coke or Pepsi: Coca Cola
Li'l Wayne or Little Debbie: ... what?
McDonald's or Arby's: McD's
Chiptole or Taco Bell: CHIPOTLE (what kind of question is that?!)
American Idol or MTV: American Idol
Buffalo Wings or Florida: ?
New York City or Los Angeles: New York
Name you like for your future daughter: Jennifer, Anna, Christine, Anne
Name you like for your future son: Daniel, John, David,
What is or what will be the first country you see outside the continent of North America: ? The first country I ever went to outside of north america was France.
Disney movie you would be most likely to watch on your 21st birthday: ...Pirates of the Caribbean...or something. I dunno.
Cinco: Can you figure out what Disney movie my blog title comes from?
the Fox and the Hound?
Strengths of the genre: It's enlightening sometimes. It's usually not a dense peice of text and there usually isn't like, "hidden meaning".
Weaknesses: sometimes people choose to talk about something really boring and dont manage to make it interesting. For example, Jury Duty.
I actually like writing fiction better because I'm not confined to what has actually happened to me. I usually make up stuff that while somewhat realistic had never actually happend to me, because lets face it, not that much happens to me. And often, something that might be special to someone else is kinda commonplace for me so I would write about it differantly or not at all.
Doce:
Reading gives us more ideas and feeds our vocabulary. There is not really much more to say besides that. I don’t like this question, why do we need to do so many words for a question so easily answered. I’ll try I guess.
Reading can inspire us, it can teach us, and it can move us to emotion. Reading something in a book can change your life just like going to hear someone speak. Sometimes more so because you can read it again and again. Reading is also very special because when you are super stressed out, a book can take you some where else- somewhere where life is better, or people are fighting to make it better- anywhere but real life.
tres
Favorite piece might be the first short story I wrote, about the roses. But I think I got the best stuff out of the poetry unit, Untitled, Untitled 2, The Dagger Blue, sighs, and Blank Paper Calls to Me. So poetry’s my favorite genre I guess, it kind of takes a lot less effort. Red Roses for her might be my favorite because it’s more serious than some of my other prose but it turned out really well and a lot of my friends liked it too. Greatest challenge was probably the play, I went through like three idea’s before finally settling on my final one. I didn’t really care for my play, it was kinda boring and cheesy and it wasn’t very well written because it was so early in the morning when I wrote it. I will use like everything for like APAL assignments this year, and next year I dunno how I’ll use it in school but I do plan to keep writing stuff. especially poetry, I like writing poetry. :)
Quatre: Quiz
Coke or Pepsi: Coca Cola
Li'l Wayne or Little Debbie: ... what?
McDonald's or Arby's: McD's
Chiptole or Taco Bell: CHIPOTLE (what kind of question is that?!)
American Idol or MTV: American Idol
Buffalo Wings or Florida: ?
New York City or Los Angeles: New York
Name you like for your future daughter: Jennifer, Anna, Christine, Anne
Name you like for your future son: Daniel, John, David,
What is or what will be the first country you see outside the continent of North America: ? The first country I ever went to outside of north america was France.
Disney movie you would be most likely to watch on your 21st birthday: ...Pirates of the Caribbean...or something. I dunno.
Cinco: Can you figure out what Disney movie my blog title comes from?
the Fox and the Hound?
1.07.2008
re: unexcitingly titled blog.
Only one guiding principal? I guess I would have to say, don’t compromise your values. As far as shaping my life, it why I haven’t dated yet, its why I don’t do everything my friends do, it’s why I’ve only seen one R rated movie, its why I am so involved in my church and my youth group, it’s why I don’t listen to music where there is a ton of swearing or is inappropriate, it’s why I try not to swear, it’s why I don’t diss my parents, and its why my friends trust me. It’s important to me because it’s who I am and what I know is right. I don’t try to impose my views on other people, a lot of my friends don’t have the same values as me and I don’t love them any less. But in order to remain me, I must not compromise what I know is true and right.
The only thing I can think of is the bridge collapse. But that didn’t really change the way I viewed the world, it only affected me because I freaked out and called like every one I knew trying to make sure they were ok. I guess it also made me see that we don’t know when it could end and we should be prepared. that was only 64 words so I need a few more. Am I there yet? Yup!
In 2008 I want to accomplish…better grades, better life, better relationship with this one friend who I have kind of neglected, I don’t really have any huge aspirations or resolutions. I want to have a good year. what will that consist of? I don’t know. I can’t wait to find out. Since this needs to be 100 words and I don’t actually have to stay on topic if I have nothing left to say, I want to say that my dog is the best in the whole world. No contest. Since that is still only 90 words, I am adding this sentence. Now I am at… 106. Go me!
12.20.2007
Assignment MM3
#1
Some things that I found frustrating about the form were that you couldn't tell the audience what the actors were thinking. When I’m writing short stories there are always running commentaries of the characters' thoughts and feelings, which wouldn't ever be said out loud. The strengths in the form are that the dialog helps the story move along. Pleasant surprises I found were that its fun to write dialog. Unpleasant surprises; sometimes its hard to write believable dialog. I don’t think I ever will want to write more in this genre or its sister genres. It really cramps my style of including description and thoughts in the text. (108 words)
#2
I could write about things that happened to me in England. I could write about how guilty I felt when I changed the clock on Ms. Maggie’s Desk and made the sub let us go early. That’s like the worst thing I’ve ever done :P I could write about various experiences I’ve had at summer camps, I could write about skating at Grandmother and Granddad’s. I could write about the MS150 when Deanna and Ben and I helped out. If I could just write like twenty-one more words I would be finished. I don’t really have very many ideas, maybe something will happen over break. (105 words)
#3
be proud of your name
don’t date until your sophomore year of college
praise the Lord your God with all you’re heart soul mind and strength
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
Be forgiving
Be caring
Be gentle
Quality over quantity with your friends
careful who you trust
Keep who you have a crush on to yourself or you’ll never hear the end of it
Make and be nice to your guy friends, but realize that you don’t ever need to be more than friends (again, until sophomore year of college)
Be joyful always
avoid quarrels
make peace
listen to me :P
(131 words)
Some things that I found frustrating about the form were that you couldn't tell the audience what the actors were thinking. When I’m writing short stories there are always running commentaries of the characters' thoughts and feelings, which wouldn't ever be said out loud. The strengths in the form are that the dialog helps the story move along. Pleasant surprises I found were that its fun to write dialog. Unpleasant surprises; sometimes its hard to write believable dialog. I don’t think I ever will want to write more in this genre or its sister genres. It really cramps my style of including description and thoughts in the text. (108 words)
#2
I could write about things that happened to me in England. I could write about how guilty I felt when I changed the clock on Ms. Maggie’s Desk and made the sub let us go early. That’s like the worst thing I’ve ever done :P I could write about various experiences I’ve had at summer camps, I could write about skating at Grandmother and Granddad’s. I could write about the MS150 when Deanna and Ben and I helped out. If I could just write like twenty-one more words I would be finished. I don’t really have very many ideas, maybe something will happen over break. (105 words)
#3
be proud of your name
don’t date until your sophomore year of college
praise the Lord your God with all you’re heart soul mind and strength
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
Be forgiving
Be caring
Be gentle
Quality over quantity with your friends
careful who you trust
Keep who you have a crush on to yourself or you’ll never hear the end of it
Make and be nice to your guy friends, but realize that you don’t ever need to be more than friends (again, until sophomore year of college)
Be joyful always
avoid quarrels
make peace
listen to me :P
(131 words)
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